Every morning I sit at my kitchen table with my Bible and my journal.
This blog is a result of those times of reflection and conversation with God.

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Evidence of a Presence



Many of you know that recently I served as a juror on an important murder trial.  I had never before been called to serve on a jury, so I was surprised when I not only received the summons, but I got called back for questioning.  There were two long days of questioning where the lawyers gauged our understanding of the law.  Many times they emphasized the important responsibility of being a juror.  The fact that, although our system is not perfect, it is the best out there because we allow citizens to stand between man and the government as an arbiter.  Our decision decides the fate of the defendant.  I felt both honored and terrified of the responsibility.  In the end, me, and fourteen others, were chosen from the pool of 90 potential jurors and were told to come back on Monday.  We were warned to not do any research on the case, so that we made our decision only based on the information presented during the trial.

On Monday we heard the opening statements from both attorneys explaining the main gist of their future arguments.  For those who aren't familiar, the case is about the murder of a man who came home in the midst of a robbery in his home.  There were two men who were committing the burglary.  The prosecutors were arguing that the defendant was not only one of those men, but that he was also the murderer and mastermind of the crime.  The defense was arguing that he was not even there, and that the co-defendant was framing him in order to protect someone else.  Over the next few days, the prosecuting attorneys laid out a meticulous set of evidence that walked us through the events concerning the crime and revealed step by step the proof that the defendant was in fact there.  This evidence was so overwhelming that, even though there was no DNA evidence linking the defendant to the crime scene (ie no fingerprints etc), the jurors would have had to throw all common sense out the window to believe that he wasn't the culprit.  You see, even though he didn't leave a solid piece of scientific evidence of his presence that night in the house, he left a distinct trail of his presence including witnesses, distinct shoe prints, cell phone GPS coordinates, and the possession of stolen items among many others.  

Today it hit me that this concept is very similar to our belief in God.  No, we do not have direct scientific evidence of God's presence.  I cannot give you a piece of God.  I cannot record His voice and play it for you.  I cannot even show you a photograph of His face.  I can, however, show you a set of evidence of His presence that, using common sense, removes any shadow of doubt concerning the existence of a Creator.  

Starting with the evidence around us, the obvious conclusion we would draw from the complexity of the universe we live in is that our world was designed.  I've read the analogy where we are asked what we would believe if we found a watch on the beach.  Would our first thought be that the watch came to be as a natural outgrowth of the ocean?  Of course not.  The assembly of a watch requires intentional action--complexity never comes out of chance.  In the same way, it takes a stretch to believe that the amazing detail of our universe came about as a result of millions of years of random interactions.  God's "fingerprint" is all over His creation--His thought, His creativity, His plans shown through the smallest details of the human cell to the hugeness of the universe (see Louie Giglio's video here for an awesome description).

The foreman of our jury, and also a lawyer, explained how he came to the conviction of guilt for the defendant.  He said that there is a logical train of thought that helps identify the most realistic option.  He tried to follow the thought presented by the defense that the defendant was in fact not there.  That someone else had his phone when the GPS coordinates were taken near the crime scene.  That someone else was wearing the identical shoes that matched the shoe prints at the scene of the crime and that he himself was later wearing when he was arrested near the scene of the crime.  The amount of speculating and juggling it would require to accept this idea was preposterous.  It sounds similar to Occam's razor--a problem solving principle that states that the simplest hypothesis is often the one most correct (click here for a more detailed definition).  This too fits when considering the existence of God as Creator.  It takes much more mental gymnastics to believe the earth created itself.  

Looking at the revelation given to us in God's Word, we find hundreds upon hundreds of witnesses.  Those who have seen Him face to face.  Those who have spoken for Him and seen those things come to pass.  Those who have been willing to die for the revelation that they have experienced.  

Through the course of the trial and preceding it, we were instructed quite specifically how to evaluate the plausibility of a witness. We were to note how they acted on the stand (fidgeting, not making eye contact, etc), their past character as known to us, and what they might have to gain from testifying.  These points helped us to weigh the testimonies of conflicting statements.

In the same way, we can evaluate the witnesses set forth from the Bible.  Let's evaluate the disciples following Jesus's death and resurrection.  Following Jesus's death, the disciples were in hiding.  John 20:19 says, "Then, the same day at evening, being the first day of the week, when the doors were shut where the disciples were assembled, for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood in the midst, and said to them, 'Peace be with you.'"  In this moment in time, the disciples were afraid for their lives.  They knew from what happened to followers of other rebel factions that after the leader was killed so were any of their close followers.  Into the midst of this fear, Jesus shows up.  He speaks to their fears knowing this was crippling them.  Scripture tells us that Jesus hung around for 40 days revealing himself to hundreds of people before ascending to heaven and leaving them with the commission to go and be witnesses. The book of Acts records what happens next--these fearful disciples become bold proclaimers of Christ.   Every single one of them dies as a martyr, except John who is exiled.  

As we observe these men, we see they are not ashamed or acting shifty.  Instead, they act with certainty.  We observe the change in their characters from the competitive, showy disciples of old to men who demonstrate that they had been with Jesus (Acts 4:13).  We see that they have nothing to gain from their testimony except ridicule, excommunication, and death.  Can you get a stronger witness than theirs?  (For an awesome article on the plausibility of their witness, click here).

And we aren't done yet.  I am a witness too.  I can relate a hundred, a thousand times, I've seen God work in my life in a way that cannot be explained away.  I have the witness of a changed life and changed heart, and even more so, the witness of a changing life and a changing heart.  He is real and He is at work in me.  

In that jury room, the twelve of us who were left to deliberate found it easy to look at the evidence and state that he had been at the scene of the crime.  Based on the evidence of witnesses and evidence of his presence, we found him guilty of first degree murder.

In many ways, the truth of God himself is on trial though not for a crime.  Will we listen to the defense and follow the absurd manipulations of truth that we must believe in order to show that God is not here or will we use our common sense and choose the only verdict that makes sense?

God is guilty of being here and being real.  The evidence for His presence is overwhelming. 


Thursday, October 16, 2014

Am I Good?


One of the ideas that is most offensive to non-believers (and, let's be honest, believers too) is the idea that we are sinners. When we look around at the world, yes, we see inexplicable evil, but we mostly see people living in harmony following the laws and caring for their families and others.  It seems hard to call these people bad.

When we look at tragedies like 9/11, we even see firefighters and policeman and average, regular citizens risking their lives to help others with no reward to themselves (and often to their detriment).  Are these people evil?

What we have to do first is define what it means to be good.  What is our standard?  If our standard is everyone else then we are all set.   We find it easy to point out that those who commit evil acts are anomalies.  Goodness essentially means to us the absence of obvious evil.  If I don't hurt anyone--I'm good.  If I help someone--that's bonus.  

The truth is that the standard for good is much higher--the standard is God's perfect holiness.  Goodness (at least according to God's definition), therefore, isn't just the lack of doing bad things--it's perfect purity.  

It's not just never murdering someone--it's never thinking a hateful thought.
It's not just never stealing something that doesn't belong to to us--it's never even having the tiniest desire to do this.
It's not just never committing adultery--it's never looking at anyone except your spouse with any sort of interest. (Matthew 5:21-30)

When we look at that standard, it's easy to see that we all fall short.  And when we realize that this is the standard to which we are all being held that is when we fall to our knees in humility and recognize we need help.  

I want to be that good.  I want my instinctual desires to be something of beauty and not of selfishness.  I want to be changed.

Bottom line, I want a Savior. 

Sunday, October 12, 2014

Keep Your Heart



"Keep your heart with all diligence, For out of it spring the issues of life." 
Proverbs 4:23 (NKJV)
"Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it." 
Proverbs 4:23 (NIV)

Last night I returned from a Women of Faith conference in Orlando with a group of lovely women whom I am blessed to call friends. We heard from various speakers such as Patsy Clairmont, Sheila Walsh, and, a new one for me, Christine Caine.  I thoroughly enjoyed the weekend and the good teaching and the excellent reminders of God's redemptive power--His ability to turn even the horrible things in our lives into something beautiful.  This morning I got up and studied in Hebrews in preparation for my Sunday school lesson.  The author of Hebrews is frustrated with the lack of their spiritual maturity and chastens them for their "milk-drinking" saying "solid food belongs to those who are of full age, that is, those who by reason of use have their senses exercised to discern both good evil."  Hebrews 5:14

All the Bible lessons and Bible reading I've done this weekend is wonderful, but it is absolutely useless if I don't put it into practice.  And putting it into practice isn't usually a large task, it's a small, consistent choice to continually keep watch over my heart and my thoughts.  In Proverbs 4:23, we are admonished to keep or guard our hearts.  I am a NKJV girl, but I think NIV really nails it with this translation.  Guard it because everything you do flows from it.  What's happening internally will decide what is happening externally.

Adam had a similar admonition in that he was instructed in Genesis 2:15 to tend and keep the garden (with the same connotation of guarding).  In fact the Hebrew word shamar can be translated as to keep, guard, keep watch and ward, protect, save life, watch (www.blueletterbible.org).  Adam had a responsibility to protect.  To be on guard against danger.  We all know that he didn't do his job well and it ends with disastrous consequences. 

We don't want to continue that same story over and over again in our lives.  So let's heed the warning to guard our hearts.  And how do we do this?

It starts by monitoring the monologue of our thoughts.  Many times over the years, when discussing sin, I would ask my students how they would like their thoughts to be broadcast for all to hear.  The terrified looks on their faces said it all.  It would be horrible!  We have a constant stream of thoughts going through our mind--many times unchecked.  Now I will preface this to say that for the most part, we have absolutely no control over those random, horrible thoughts that seem to come from nowhere.  We do, however, have control over what we do next.

2 Corinthians 10:5 speaks of taking our thoughts captive to the obedience of Christ.  This is our goal.  Let me give you a practical example of how this looks:
1) Jane has a stupid thought (it could be one of fear, anger, lust, judgment, arrogance, or whatever) but for this situation we will say she has one of self-loathing.  She says to herself, "I am horrible and no one will ever love me."
2) Jane stops and recognizes that thought for what it is (not from God).  This thought is a big, fat lie.
3) Jane submits this thought to the truth of God.  "God's Word has told me that I am fearfully and wonderfully made."
4) Jane moves on.

We humans have a funny way of interacting with our feelings and thoughts.  We seem to believe that if we feel it or think it (especially in a strong way) that this automatically makes this sentiment true.  We don't take time to really think about it.  The awesome thing is we don't have to figure this out on our own--we have the word of God to help us identify truth and lies (too bad Adam didn't do this himself).  

When we feel something very strongly, whether it is shame, fear, anger, or lust, we are tempted to think this is the most real thing in the world.  It isn't.  Feelings pass.  One of the biggest lies ever is the lie that a certain feeling will never change.  We think if we feel it now that we will always feel this way.  And that simply is not true.  Because we can make a choice about what we want to believe.  We do not have to be lead by the emotions; we can choose to lead them instead.

We lead by bringing these emotions and thoughts to God's Word and seeing how they line up.  If they don't, we can just let them go.  It's not our fault that we felt it, but it is our fault if we hold on to it and nurture it.  And it is by doing this that we truly grow into maturity as mentioned in the passage from Hebrews 5:14.