Thirsting for More

"O God, You are my God; early will I seek You; my soul thirsts for You; my flesh longs for You in a dry and thirsty land where where is no water.  So I have looked for You in in the sanctuary, to see Your power and Your glory."  Psalm 63:1-2
   This verse introduces a common experience for mankind.  We all feel this desire or longing for something more.  In the darkness of the night, our soul cries out for a reality that can quench the deepest longings of our heart.  We long to be known.  To have purpose.  Many in light of that the insatiable desire have turned to God to meet that need.  As the psalmist, we have gone to His sanctuary to see His power and His glory. C.S. Lewis describes his own longing in his autobiography Surprised by Joy.
   “The first is itself the memory of a memory. As I stood beside a flowering currant bush on a summer day there suddenly arose in me without warning, and as if from a depth not of years but of centuries, the memory of that earlier morning at the Old House when my brother had brought his toy garden into the nursery. It is difficult to find words strong enough for the sensation which came over me; Milton's 'enormous bliss' of Eden (giving the full, ancient meaning to 'enormous') comes somewhere near it. It was a sensation, of course, of desire; but desire for what?...Before I knew what I desired, the desire itself was gone, the whole glimpse... withdrawn, the world turned commonplace again, or only stirred by a longing for the longing that had just ceased... In a sense the central story of my life is about nothing else... The quality common to the three experiences... is that of an unsatisfied desire which is itself more desirable than any other satisfaction. I call it Joy, which is here a technical term and must be sharply distinguished both from Happiness and Pleasure. Joy (in my sense) has indeed one characteristic, and one only, in common with them; the fact that anyone who has experienced it will want it again... I doubt whether anyone who has tasted it would ever, if both were in his power, exchange it for all the pleasures in the world. But then Joy is never in our power and Pleasure often is.” 
  He saw in those moments a hint of something far greater than just instant gratification.  It was a whiff of a heavenly scent.  A desire for something bigger and grander than himself.  It was what the Bible calls the hope of eternity set in each person's heart (Ecclesiastes 3:11).  I think many of us can relate to those moments in life--perhaps it was a beautiful scene in nature that took your breath away, a book that was written with almost perfect clarity and brilliant expression, or a moment with a loved one that warmed you.  Those moments are brief, but always memorable.
   I believe these moments help prepare us for truth.  They lift up the eyes that are firmly fixed on earthly soil and help us look up to the heavens in wonder.  Where before we were distracted with the daily details of living, those divine moments make us stop and think of what's really important.
   Unfortunately, for many, that is the end of the experience.  That one moment gets our attention, but, because of its brevity, it cannot sustain it.  Soon enough, we are immersed in the basics of everyday life again.  We remember that wonderful, intense moment, but it soon becomes a fond memory and nothing else. 
   That's because that moment was an invitation--the beginning and not the end.  The goal isn't to recreate that moment, but to find the why behind the moment.  For those who make that connection, that moment doesn't need to end.  It can be the entrance to a whole new life.  
   Many of us don't know how to go from the desire to the fulfillment of that desire. That's something that isn't easily explained.  Many much wiser than I am have written books upon books on the subject.  I do think, however, that it can be very simple.  Ask. 
   If you want more of God--ask Him.  Matthew 7: 8 says, "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened." The promise is offered repeatedly throughout scripture for those who will demonstrate the persistence to keep on asking.  In Matthew Henry's commentary on this passage, he states, " Prayer is the appointed means for obtaining what we need. Pray; pray often; make a business of prayer, and be serious and earnest in it. Ask, as a beggar asks alms. Ask, as a traveller asks the way. Seek, as for a thing of value that we have lost; or as the merchantman that seeks goodly pearls. Knock, as he that desires to enter into the house knocks at the door."
Don't be satisfied with the momentary glimpses.  Keep asking for more of Him that you might truly live!
   But after asking there yet remains another step--believe He will answer you.  Hebrews 11:6 states, "But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him."  This is where the important step of faith comes in (please note that the faith step is more to do with God's character than His existence).  We must believe that He wants to and can answer our prayer.  When we believe this, we realize that the weight of action has actually moved from us to Him.  We wait in hopeful anticipation.  He does everything else.
   So if we ask Him to reveal Himself to us, and we believe He will reveal Himself, we also need to open our eyes to see when He does reveal Himself.   In many books I've read, including Eldridge's Sacred Romance, it is believed that God is revealing Himself daily.  In fact He is actively romancing us--through things of beauty, through meaningful connections, through dappled rays of light.  He romances us with love.  Are we watching?  Are we responding? We don't have to wait for those big, life-changing moments to experience His presence.  We can walk every day with eyes open to see Him actively at work around us.

Lord, you know how easily we are distracted by the world around us.  There's always something to do, and when we are finally done we fall exhausted on our beds.  And then we wonder "Is this all there is?"  I pray Lord that we will first yearn for something more.  Awaken in us a desire to desire--and not just petty, small desires for immediate fulfillment.  Put in us a hope for eternity,a desire for the true reality of the world, and don't let us be satisfied with anything less.  And then we ask, God, that you would show us Your Heart.  Let us fall in love with you.  Let us wait with breathless anticipation to see how You will show up today.  We cannot do this on our own.  We need you, and we believe you want us know You.  Give us eyes to see and hears to hear You!
Amen